I am not feeling melancholy for leaving them to the world who are my family. But in the name of family I only have papa. Before Mumma left me I used to have a happy perfect family with Mumma, papa and me. To the world, maybe we are imperfect.

But that imperfect family was my ideal family. But that was shattered by a witch. During vidai I know she is shedding fake tears because it ruins her great mother facade. Only thing that fragmented me was leaving papa. After mumma only he is my safe place,my mentor and everything.

Today I am leaving him for some strange man who I met just a week back. This is not equitable. What made me believe him is that a strange man is reacting to my tears, making things easy for me.

From day one he has been caring for me, respecting my opinions, doing everything to make me feel righteous. Whole marriage happened like a dream but it is reality that I am married now.

I have the responsibility of a family and reputation on my shoulders. I trust this family because I have been living with a witch all these years so if this family did anything wrong with me it can't be more than what I have been suffering.

I am used to pain, suffering, even now I don't know how to fight for my rights. I cannot allow my dark past to engulf my new journey. So sidelining those thoughts I have followed all the rituals which Raghvi aunty guided me.

“Bhabhi come I'll give a house tour “ Ashi chirped with her most energetic tone.

“ Ashi she is exhausted …...you can do that tomorrow. Convoy her to your bhai's room.” Maa instructed Ashi.

Supriya di and Ashi left me at his room. Now I am feeling like running away from here. Because it's our first night. Apprehensive about what he will be expecting.

Taking deep breaths, encouraging myself, I slowly entered. I prayed that he would not be present in the room but what do you think luck will be in my favor? Then it is no.

My to be husband …...no no my husband is relaxingly sitting on bed by supporting his back to the headrest and scrolling through his phone. He is wearing a black t-shirt which is showing the outline of his abs and hard chest , even his biceps. He is hot. Shut up…. don't you have any shame to drool at a man,my subconscious mind scolded me.

The room was decorated exquisitely with red roses and scented candles were lit all over the room. Lights were dim.It gives an erotic environment. Rose petals were spread on the bed enticingly.By taking baby steps I entered.should I lock the door?

You dumbo, you should do that. If not what his family will think. By my presence he looked up from his phone. I tried to bolt the door but it is a bit tight. Seriously it is embarrassing now I can't even lock a door.

By looking at my struggle he stood up from bed and walked towards me. He caged me between the door and him. He is so close that our fronts are slightly touching.

He is coming close and moving his hands towards me, I closed my eyes tightly anticipating that he would do something. But he bolted the door. Realizing it I opened my eyes by now he is staring at me with his brown eyes.

“ What are you expecting, baby?” He deciphered.

“ I am not expecting anything. Why would I expect something?” I said in my defense.

“You can contemplate many things baby and I am looking forward to doing more stuff too.” He is brazen.

“ I want to change. I am tired.” I said to change the topic. Because it affects me more if I stay a minute longer.

“ Mmm, I have asked the butler to keep your luggage in the closet. You can change. Badal ne mein madadat kar sakta hun…”( I can help you in changing) he said, wiggling his eyebrows.

“ Besharam aadmi “(shameless man)I muttered.

“Sirf aapke liye….main kuch bhi ban sakta hun “(only for you I can become anything)

His room is exactly like his personality. Bright with multiple colors. His room walls are decorated with all sports cars I think. I am not interested in cars. Wow, a guitar is hanging on one of the walls. It's interesting that he knows how to play guitar.

Maybe he is a travel freak. There is a world map decorated with fairy lights and pinned with his pictures from that place when he visited. There were so many photos of him pinned. His room is completely different from my room.

His room gives you positive vibes and somewhat it is like a teenager room. With posters, guitar and many things.

Sighing, I went to the washroom and took my own time to change and remove my makeup and jewelry except my mangalsutra…these pins in my hair are giving me a headache. I changed into simple plain cotton kurti and loose pants.

I came out and he was waiting for me. I gathered courage to say no if he talked about actual deeds to be done on the first night. I examined his room but there was no couch or chair to be seated.

“How will we sleep tonight? There is no couch or anything.” I questioned him.

“ Hello Mrs. Ahuja to sleep we need bed not couch”

“ I am talking about where you will sleep? As I will be sleeping in bed.” I confirmed it with him.

“ It's my room till yesterday but from today it's our room so we both will be sleeping on the bed itself.” He implored.

“But I am not used to sharing my bed.” I faked it to convince him.

“ Ok then as there is no extra bed I will sleep in the guest room. You can sleep comfortably.”

“NO…are you planning to embarrass me infront of family or trying to make me a villain.” I said with annoyance. How can he do that?

“ I don't have a choice either to sleep in the guestroom or We should share the bed.” He convinced me because I can't let him sleep in guest room.

“Ok”

Finally we both settled on bed. I maintained proper space between us. Started to keep pillows.

“Oh madam, we are husband and wife, not some strangers. You are behaving like I am profane.” He said to annoy me.

“ It's my first time sleeping beside a man so”

“ What do you think about me? I will be sleeping around with girls? Even if it's my first time.” He whined.

“Arjun I want to talk with you .Like a proper adult one” I said with a serious tone because I have many doubts regarding many things.

“ We are talking right now too.” Arjun said but it's not funny.

“ Arjunn” I said to stop him.

“Ok ok I am all ears”

“ Firstly I am not ready for that.” I said in one go by fidgeting my top and tightly closing my eyes.

“ For what?”

“ I mean doing that.” I elucidated.

“ Baby I don't ever force myself on you. It will be completely consensual. Until you are ready we are not doing anything. Don't ever bother about it” he assured me. Thank god he understood.

“ Second thing, what if the family wants kids?”

“ Look, kids and starting a family completely depends on us. Having kids will be your decision because it's your body and you are the one who will be carrying our babies. Fuck the society and everyone. Don’t ever stress your little brain.” Uff he cleared my biggest traction.

“ Third thing I want to study besides that I don't demand anything “ I want to make sure so I said.

“ Are you out of your mind how many times I have said that whatever you want you can do but stay safe that's it. Even if you want to do phD you can. No one will object to you. All I want to say is that I am with you no matter what happens.” he is annoyed by constant q&a sessions.

“Thank you…thank you so much “ right now I am jumping on my place because he agreed to everything.

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Oh my god how many questions she will ask. It's ok for me to clear her every query. But why the fuck she is bothered about kids and others opinions.

Like it's our fucking life we can decide what we want. So I wanted to assure her. But by my avowal she is literally jumping like a kid. Yeah I am married with a kid.

I wantedly made house help to remove all the couches and chairs from the room. Because I sensed beforehand that she would be asking to sleep separately. So I left her with no choice. Like how can I allow her or myself to sleep on the couch. Not When I am desperately waiting for this to happen.

She fell asleep fastly as she was too tired and exhausted. Soon her breaths became even. I slowly removed the pillow wall she built. Actually, she showed all her architectural skills. She stirred in her sleep and soon turned towards my side.

I don't wear any shirt or upper at night usually but I can not make her feel uncomfortable on our first night itself so I wore a t-shirt. By looking at her calm face, my heart felt at peace.

Today I feel I am complete. As for my love,my wife is sleeping beside me. Soon I dozed. Love is the only thing I am drowning into.

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Warm sun rays peak into the room through windows. I felt heavy on my chest.I adjusted my eyes to the light. When I opened my eyes completely, the most beautiful sight in the world was that her head was on my chest, her hairs were curtaining her face and she wrapped her hand around my torso. Her breasts were touching my chest.Her mangalsutra is resting on my chest as well, her vermilion is smudged on my t-shirt. This is so ethereal to feel.

I moved her hair strands from her face as they are blocking my view. With my touch her hold became tight. Not to disturb her, I confined myself from moving.

Sometime later she stirred. I think she had woken up.

“Why are you cuddling me? I kept pillows in between even ,why are you on my side of bed?” This girl is something else. She is cuddling me and now scolding me.

“Baby it's ok to blame me. I know I am too hot to handle.But at least look at who is holding whom.” I tried to make her understand.

She realized her position and immediately straightened. Without even looking at me she rushed into the washroom. Right now she might be embarrassed but it's ok.

My shy baby……

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